I went searching for a Thomas Merton quote today. I still haven't found the one I was looking for which is quite annoying because I remember reading it somewhere in the last 48 hours. But I found this - which fitted the rather negative mood I was in beautifully. And reminded me that silence is also an answer.
The quote comes from a letter he wrote to a woman named Katherine Champney on the 10th of November 1966. It can be found in its entirity on the Web with a bit of searching, but these two paragraphs jumped straight out at me.
"That is my quarrel with religious people. They are selling answer and
consolations. They are in the reassurance business. I give you
no reassurance whatever except that I know your void and I am in it, but I
have a different way of understanding myself in it. It is not that much
more delightful. But it does to me make a great deal of sense—for me. I
will say this, that it is to me after all reassuring to be able to run
into Zen people and Moslem masters and so on and realize we understand
each other perfectly. And I hasten to say that you don’t have to feel
all that alone either. Incidentally, in an earlier and less chastened
version of that article, I said that really I felt much more at home
with unbelievers than with believers. In a sense I do. But I can’t
that easily evade the embarrassment that Church people cause in me
perpetually.
So, friend Katherine, I am not Father Merton inside the warm Church
calling you to come and sit by the fire of positive thinking or
something. I am out in the cold with you because (forgive the flip
saying) God is where He isn’t. And maybe that’s where the Church is, too
(when all the miters are off and the vestments are hung in the closet).
I won’t run on anymore, but I think I have said enough to make clear
that I think the whole business of faith and the message of faith is in
the process of finding a whole new language—or of shutting up
altogether. Hence the answer to your question: if God does not speak to
you, it is not your fault, and it is not His fault, it is the fault of
the whole mentality that creates the impression that He has to be
constantly speaking to people. Those who are the loudest to affirm they
hear Him are people not to be trusted. But, nevertheless, there is a way
of understanding that non-hearing is hearing. Maybe it is all too
subtle."
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